Parenting is Hard

I think growing children is hard. (Wow. growing children - I'm keeping it like that.)
That's it.

In the midst of everything, I think my parents did a good job.
But I do think they make mistakes, because... one child is simply not the same as the other. And for the 3 of us, we are all very different.

Words need to be right.
Assurance and Affirmation is suppose to be constant.
Guidance has to be evidence-based.
I kinda wonder if I could ever be consistent.

Growing up, I have always questioned my parents' words because well, I was a curious one but, at the end of the day - none of what they say was wrong.
The world is dangerous.
Doing this will ensure a certain amount of success.
And of course, their judgement on whether you could do it.
I was aware of abilities in pre-university period - simply, because that's the first reality I encounter after the very controlled environment of high school.
High school is a phase I tell you - you CANNOT judge your capabilities based on that because... it is too controlled. Everything is somewhat catered to your level. (my opinion, don't quote me on it)
And
I realised what they (parents) said and more was true.
I started to know the levels of my capability.
In degree that I have agreed to do - I tested them and somewhat found my limits. And god, do I want to push them further.
I have been very idle lately - but a picture is starting to form in my head. A hard and sketchy picture. Something I really want to come true.
I questioned my presence in this degree before, but with this in mind - I don't anymore. Because the only way to get it - is through this.

So parenting is hard.
They have to keep you motivated, be strict with you, handle you with more love than anyone else, and no one is perfect - so they make mistakes in certain decisions.
But they are definitely always always trying. My parents do, and someday, I am going to repay all of that. For sure. I hope.
Aamiin.