When your high or low.

I am feeling a whole range of emotions. 

I feel neglected (what a spoil brat.)

I feel nervous and anxious.

I feel so much doubt in my choices (I don't know what to think.)

I feel as if I am going to fail. 

But do not besmirch me yet. 

I have trust in Him, and Him alone. 

He is the only one I trust in the matters of fate and rezeki, as I should. 

It took me awhile to truly realize His Greatness, as blind as I was. 

He was the one who gave this life.

He was the one who gave me these parents.

He was the one who gave me everything there is, as it wouldn't be possible without His grace. 

I feel down at times but I know that He will always have our best interest. 

He knows best. 

He knows what we should go through. 

He knows what I need for me to grow.

And my biggest fear is the time when He does give up on me, which I pray that it should never happen to me or my family. 

(Ya Allah, never give up on me and also my family. Aamiin.)

I need Him.

I need his Protection.

I need a lot of things from Him.

Nothing I do will never be enough.

Nothing I say will ever be sufficient to be granted the air in my lungs.

Alhamdulillah is all I could say to everything that is here today. For me and my family.